:-ARGH-: i just hate myself
here the current weight: 77,1 kg
i looked in the mirror and i seemed to get smaller ... now i look in the mirror and see a huge whale !!! i´ve got to get rid of these fat layers around me !!!
goal: next monday i´ll weigh myself again (it just ruins my day), the weight goal will be 74,1 kg. it´s doable.
so my goals for the next weeks:
week 1: 74,1
week 2: 72,1
week 3: 70,1
week 4: below 70
week 5: 69,1
week 6: 68
that´s 9 kg in 6 weeks. i know i can do it !!
i just hate myself so much, i sweat all the time, it´s nice outside and i have to hide my fat body under layers and layers of clothing, of course i sweat even more, i just hate it !!!!!!
oh, and major binge today ... MAJOR !!! i had 400 g sweets (total of 1200 cals + 10 popsicles) and i´m still not done ... good for me that i have to meet some friends to get some work done, i could binge on for like a few hours, even though i feel really full.
beginning with tomorrow i´ll fast, allowed only: milk, coffee, coke light, water. once a day i can put some sugar in my coffee. that´s all - until i weigh 75 kg. then i´ll continue with eating veggies, fish, fruits and chicken.